Low pro food / cooking

Nicole’s “Lower” protein pumpkin pie pudding.

My wonderful younger sister Nicole loves pumpkin pie! So do I actually. Runs in the family. However we try not to eat it to much for our own reasons. Mine obviously due to the protein. So Nicole came up with a Delicious dish that makes you feel like your getting your pie and eating it to. 

 

Nicole’s Pumpkin pie pudding w/ cookie crumble

1 package of butterscotch pudding

follow package ingredients and directions but use 2 cups so delicious coconut milk instead of regular milk. 

beat with a rotater beater, add 1 can of pumpkin puree

mix together, and chill

crumble vanilla Oreo cookies on top

serve with low fat cool whip

 

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That's my PKU life

Busy busy day,

Well I managed to get my get up and go going this morning. I woke up early again. Seems to be a pattern on my days off. Up at 5 am, had low protein scrambled eggs and apple cinnamon pancakes for breakfast, than I had a bath. Went to yoga for an hour, went to the gym for an hour. I did 30 mins of cardio on the elliptical, 20 mins on the weight circuit, 10 mins of stretching.  It was nice I had the hole gym to myself so I shut of their TV and turned on my music on my cell phone but didn’t plug in the headphones, propped my phone up against a shelf and went about my work out. After I went to the grocery store, to get my align and a few ingredients for a new fall dessert my sister invented. I came home and made 2 loafs of low protein bread, my sisters fall dessert recipe, started a big pot of home made soup, that is still slow cooking , made a low protein pasta salad for lunch then went to bed to have a nap before work.

So yup its been a busy day, but a good day.  I still want to make banana bread and apple crisp but maybe tomorrow. At least I will have enough to eat tonight!

 

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That's my PKU life

Follow up appointment

so after dragging myself out of bed , after laying awake since 4 am then having a 2 hour nap at 9 am , I woke up and did some computer tasks, checked facebook and then I got a call from my doctors office to come in at 1:45 . So I had a shower and got ready. While showering I noted again how much hair I have been loosing these past 2 weeks.

I went to my doctor appt and my doctor, who is luckily my family doctor from back home in Victoria. I have been seeing him since I was 16 . So I was so happy to hear he moved to kamloops just after I did!

My doctor did not seem very concerned about my iron. What he told me is that my Ferritin is very low, which are my iron stores.  that they should be between 15-80 mg and mine are 5. However my Red blood cells and Hemocrit are normal so at this point I am not anemic. However that could change at any time, all would take is a bleed of some sort, even a cut that wont stop, a nose bleed anything. So I am to take an iron supplements starting at 30 mg and then bump it up to twice a day. I am also going to be taking a B12 that will dissolve under my tongue.

My doctor does not feel that my iron is the cause of all my symptoms and thinks I am slipping back into my depression. Though I mentally don’t feel depressed , I have all the physical signs so he has suggested that I double my dose for a few weeks , see how I feel and than come back.

My doctor figures between the iron, vitamin b12 and the new dose of my anti depressants I should start feeling normal again soon. The iron can take months though.

I also talked to my dietitian again and she has sent me some pamphlets on iron supplements and we just talked about my symptoms and how they have been progressing . If i think about this and when I started to notice a real difference in myself I would have to say it started in September and has gradually gotten worse.

I feel very off. I don’t feel like myself, I feel drained. physically and mentally drained. I am very fatigued, I am having trouble sleeping and could just lie in bed for hours not doing anything and not sleeping. I have no energy, I have no motivation to be active, my appetite has changed, I have gained weight this month alone.  I just feel off and run down. i don’t want to do anything. I haven’t read, or spent time on the computer or gotten out much on my days off I just want to be home resting.

So hopefully this works and I start feeling normal again and like myself again!

Thanks for all the kind words and messages wishing me well. They make me smile :)

 

 

That's my PKU life

Iron Deficiency Anemia

Well I got my blood test results back today. I went in to my doctor last week because I have been feeling very off. I have been having dizzy spells, nausea, hair loss, fatigue, low energy, no motivation, and just not feeling like myself. Its been going on for a while and been getting worse. I went into my doctor and he ordered some test for low iron, hypothyroidism, and a full blood profile. I also had my annual blood work done for the clinic. 

The test results came back today and my iron was very very low. I need to take supplements. I had anemia as a teenager because I didn’t drink all my formula , but now i am drinking all my formula. I get 22 mg iron from my formula and the daily recommended intake is 18 mg. so why am I so low? No idea. Have to wait to go see my doctor again this week. 

 

Causes of Iron deficiency anemia can be :

parasites

blood loss

lack of iron in diet

inability to absorb iron ( this is what i suspect is my cause) 

Pregnancy ( definitely not my problem) 

 

For treatment I am going to have to take supplements and a multi-vitamin . It has been recommended to me due to my IBS that I may need a prescription supplement and to start at half a dose as my stomach adjusts to it , then I can increase it . It may take weeks, it may take months but I should gradually start to feel like myself again and get these symptoms under control. Will be nice to feel normal again. 

It just very unusual with drinking all my formula that I can still be anemic again. I don’t no why this is. I was anemic at a teenager but I suspect that was because I did not drink my formula. I did gradually get better though. 

Other than that all my other blood work was fine. my triglycerides where again slightly elevated as they where last year too. My thyroid, and tyrosoine and my blood profile where all normal. So that is good to know. 

Now to just work on my iron! 

Low pro food / cooking

Dinner tonight

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While I was making applesauce today, I decided to make something different for dinner. Here is what I made tonight

 

Roasted red  potatoes w/ vegetables and fresh spices.

Ingredients:

Red Potatoes ( local )

Turnip

Brussels Sprouts ( from my mother in laws garden)

Carrots

Fresh Thyme

Fresh Rosemary

Fresh Oregano

Olive Oil

Salt

Ground Pepper

 

Roasted for one hour on 400 degrees farenheit

 

 

It was very good! I had it with margarine and my home made applesauce!

 

 

Low pro food / cooking

Granny Rickett ‘s Applesauce

Today I finally was able to make Cole’s grandma Sharrons Applesauce. Tracy , Cole’s mom brought me over some Macintosh apples on Friday and I have been dieing to make some more applesauce. Cole’s grandma gave me some at thanksgiving and I just love it. Sometimes she even gives me some in my basket at christmas, along with her apple butter. I have never been able to duplicate it so I called Granny on the weekend and got it from her.  Id share it but its a family recipe! but there are alot of applesauce recipes on google , cooks.com and allrecipeshare. com thats where I get alot of mine from.

wanted to share the photos I took during the process. I just had some with dinner and it was wonderful!!!

 

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Low pro food / cooking

Low Protein Alfredo Fettuccine

Tonight’s dinner was inspired by my mother in law Tracy . Tracy invented this low protein Alfredo sauce last summer for me.

Tonight I made some very minor adjustments. I used So Delicious coconut milk , 1/4 cup becel margarine, a heaping tablespoon of garlic, and 3 tsp of cornstarch.  Than I used Dayia pepper-jack cheese shreds about half a cup.

I made a lot so I could take the left overs to work for me. So I used 4 rolls of low protein Aproten Fettuccine .

I sauteed mushrooms and onions in margarine and added them to the sauce. whisked the sauce on medium heat frequently and added them to my pasta.

was a really wonderful dinner and nice to have something different for dinner other than plain pasta and miracle whip or mashed potatoes and cream corn.

I certainly enjoy the coconut milk much better than the almond milk or rice dream.

Here are some photos from dinner tonight. If you try your own version id love to hear how it tastes!

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Levels, Managing the diet, That's my PKU life

Annual Blood Draw day.

Well Yesterday was my annual blood draw day. I do not look forward to this day. in fact I normally put it off then it ends up being a few years before I go in to get it.  A while back I use to have them done at the the lab in langford but a few years ago they where changed to only being done in the hospital. Which is a big inconvenience. I really hate fasting. I feel sick when I fast. I always wake up hungry, so fasting is really hard. By the time I prepare some cearal and formula to take with me, get my stuff together, drive there and wait in line, then have the test done. I really start to feel sick. I start to get nauseated, dizzy, and stomach pains. The longer it goes on the worse I feel. I start to feel sluggish and just really sick.  So needless to say I really start to dread it.

Than I learnt that that the kamloops life labs does do all the tests that I need to have done and you can book an appointment. So I booked my appointment for the earliest I could get at 7:50am. Of course than though I could not sleep. So I was up frequently through the night and could not eat or drink. Then I thought my appointment was at 7:10 so I got up at 6 when Cole woke up. I packed a bowl of dry froot loops and my formula to take with me and ended up eating in my car  later while I got my oil changed and winter tires put on.

I made it to the lab just before my appointment time and it was a pretty empty waiting room. They took me right in but my lab req’s confused them a bit. I had 2 one from my family doctor and one from my clinic in Vancouver that had a lot of the same tests, also the test from my PKU clinic said it had to be sent to bc children’s hospital. Which wasn’t in their computer. I over heard and came out and told them where to send it.

I have been getting these tests done my hole life so I know what veins work and what don’t and what helps. I always request a “butterfly” which is a small needled that has a cord attached to the vials. Its a lot easier for smaller veins and for when you are having a large amount collected. Does not hurt and dose not collapse the vein. I also grip a urine spec jar in my fist otherwise I cant grip strong enough. I always ask for no tape after it makes my skin hive so I get a band-aid.

My left arm is the only arm to get blood from. I have been getting blood there for so long I have a lot of scare tissue and a permit puncture mark. The best vein is right under the scare tissue or to the left of my elbow in the inside. I never really need to be poked more than once.

However I was really dehydrated and cold so my veins where non existent yesterday.  The first lady had to try twice. she did end up trying the right arm , no one ever gets blood from my right arm and it always hurts!

The rule at this life labs is one person is only allowed to try twice, and they are not aloud to try more than 3 times in 24 hours.

Luckily the next lady got it on my left arm on the outer side. So a few bruises and an hour later all the vials where full and I was free to go!

These blood collections use 2 “yellow” tubes, 2 “lavender” tubes, 3 “green” tubes, one that needs to be kept cold for 10 minutes then spun. I believe that is the amino acids and fatty acid draws. There are a couple other colors but I forget now, i’m thinking “red” and “orange”

These tests are done once a year to monitor our blood profiles, vitamins, minerals, electrolytes, tyrosine, tsh (thyroid)  diabetes test , triglycerides, amino acids, levels of fatty acids and more. Its to ensure we are getting all the formula we need, that we are getting enough protein and that our diet is working for us. The profile usually lets the clinic know if anything needs to be changed or if we need to increase or decrease, if we should add vitamins or take anything away. My last test last year my triglycerides where to high and I was suppose to start taking salmon fish oil capsules or omega supplements but I cant swallow them there so huge. Not to mention they smell bad. Like awful chocolate and fish.  When I was a  teenager my iron was low, I was anemic and I also needed to supplement my formula with tyrosine.

My family doctor filled out a rec for me to take yesterday to as he was concerned again about my iron and on the form he selected suspected hypothyroidism. I am to go back to see him in a week for the results.

The results for my clinic will take a lot longer and my dietitian will email me with the results.  The amino acid and the fatty acids take the longest. I know my blood phe level will be higher this week to. MY level from October 3rd was 5. 2. However I have been really eating a lot of mashed potatoes and cream corn for dinner the past 2 weeks, as well as I had regular toast one night at work because I forgot my breakfast. Than on Wednesday night it was my friends birthday and I had a small slice of birthday cake. So I predict my levels will be between 8 and 11.

I have been trying to do my blood dots every few weeks but have been doing them monthly the past 2 months. Since I know I am high I am going to do another one.

Sometimes it hard for me to do my blood dot when I know I haven’t been eating well because I really don’t like to see higher numbers . I think its a part of me from when I was a kid and would get in so much trouble when they where high. I always felt so bad and guilty when my dietitians called or when I was in hospital for my clinic visits and I had to be talked to yet again about high levels. Eventually I started to tune them out and we all know where that got me. So I think apart of me still fears that. Not so much the fear and anger or frustration, now its more guilty and feeling of disappointing others and worrying about the damage, now that I know and fully understand how it  effects me.

Blood draws have never been an easy thing for me. I use to hate doing them at home, I preferred to go to the lab, I went to the same lab with the same techs for many many years, However I would put it off for weeks on end because I always had to miss school to go . I wouldn’t take the bus with my friends or get to play outside before school started. MY mom had to fight with me and later bribe me to go.  When my mom did my blood dot at home for the very first time when I was 13, I fainted. I actually fainted. Everything went black!  I had been watching the lab techs poke me and draw my blood for years and never felt squeamish. I later learnt, I am fine to do it on my own or the lab but not when someone else does it to me.

I have no problem doing my blood dots at home anymore and much rather prefer it. I still fast but I don’t have to wait. I get up when I get up, I have a shower or if i am in a hurry run my hands under warm water. Then I use my lancets and fill 2 or more circles , depending on how much blood I can get with out poking multiple times.  My clinic says its best to fast as it gives a better picture of a “true” level. It will be slightly higher when you are fasting. If you are not fasting they can have a false low. If I am unable to fast in the morning sometimes I do it between lunch and dinner. My clinic said the minimum for fasting is 4 hours. So usually right before dinner is a good time for me. Now that I am on nights I will tend to do them on my days off but If I have to do them on a night I am working, I sleep during the day when I get home and do my blood dot when I wake up to eat dinner with cole.

I then mail in my blood dot card and I have to wait between a 7 to 10 days to get an email back from my clinic with the results. If I was doing the MPKU diet, trying to conceive or pregnant than I would have to take the blood dot to the hospital for them to courier down. I think the results for that is between 2 and 4 days.

I still dream of a day when we have a home testing device like diabetics do. Would really make my life and many lives so much easier. However BIOmarin the company who was working on developing it where having trouble with the results in the lower levels and spent to much time and money on it and had to let it go.

It was a sad day in the community. I had originally wanted to wait to have a baby until we had a device. The wait for results scare me, if your sick, if levels raise, or something happens damage is already being done. However with a device I could know instantly and adjust my diet accordingly. I guess all I can do is to continue to dream and wish upon stars.

Until then I will do the best I can with what we have. At least my annual blood draw is done for another year!

 

 

 

CanPKU

Canadian PKU and Allied Disorders

in 2008 I began working with a coworker and a friend from Slegg Lumber to organize the first ever Canadian Walk-a-Thon for PKU. The 2 of us and my best friend and the time worked endlessly for months on the ” first ever Victoria BC PKU Walk-A-Thon” Thus beginning my journey into being an advocate for PKU . We worked for months writing letters to sponsors, gathering donations, obtaining a venue, raising money to host the event our selves out of pocket, advertising, and getting an interview on the Shaw Daily news.  We held the event in June 2008 at Jaun De Fuca parks and recreation. At the picnic shelter and chip trail. The trail was a loop that took about 30 mins. We had a 50/50 , door prizes, face painting, lots and lots of low protein food, and donations from PKU companies. We had T-shirts , food baskets, some cook books and food list binders from Virginia schuett at the PKU news and more. We had almost 50 people come out and walk. Including my family and coles brother. It was than that I met a PKU Adult my age Kim, and also Nicole Pallone. Rosie was only a few weeks old. They had taken the ferry over to join us. The Beginning of a wonderful friendship.

The money we raised at the walk a thon was donated and split between the BC Childrens Metabloic Clinic and the Vancouver General Hospital Adult Metabolic Clinic  to go towards a food fund, for people who could not acess of afford low protein foods. I hand delivered the donations, extra t-shirts and materials the following month .  This was also my first meeting with Dr.Stockler. They wanted to shake my hand and thank me. I don’t know who access the fun or if anyone did, after following up years later I used the adults half of the donations where used for a PKU adult who was pregnant and could not afford the food.

Upon hosting the event, I was contacted by President of Canadian PKU and Allied Disorders INC , John Adams. Who flew to Victoria and met Cole and I at white spot. After meeting with John and being in total Awe of his determination and stamina , I became one of the first British Columbia Representatives in CanPKU. CanPKU was still in its early years and as it is now, driven with ambition. I was so honored to be apart of it, as I am still honored today. It has been a wonderful experience to be apart of something so significant and an organization that I believe is in the process of changing history. I have learnt so much from having these experts in my life, I am always honoured to be around them and learn from them. I take every opportunity I can to stay involved. From working and volunteering with CanPKU from early on I have had the pleasure of watching it grow and expand , and make change in the world. I have seen people come and go, many who have still stayed, and  I have also had the pleasure of watching the members and their reach grow and expand and am so pleased with the progress.

in 2010 I took on another fundraising event, and began working on organizing the next walk-a-thon to be held in Vancouver. John and I had have so many ideas and wishes for the events. I realized quickly that this event needed  to be bigger and better and I knew that I could not do it alone. So I reached out to Nicole again, having have kept in touch since the Victoria walk-a-thon , I had gotten to know her well and new she would be a very valuable asset. Who had skills in event planning, organization and professional experience. We Co Organized the 2010 walk-a-thon and educational seminar. It was held at Lanagra College and though my nerves got the best of me, I was able to MC. I did a terrible job but everyone was so supportive. I know now and I am way more comfortable that I could do a much better job!! My advocacy work has really impacted my public speaking and I to have grown!

After the event in 2010, Nicole became the Vice President of CanPKU and we could not be happier. Nicole and John make an un-matchable team and have really driven CanPKU ahead .  CanPKU has had its changes and though there is no longer provincial representatives, I am still happy to be apart of it as a volunteer. I helped co-organize the event in 2011 as well. In the 2012 and 2013 events I volunteered as the event photographer and though I did not nearly have as an significant roll in the planning, I am unable to let go completely. Call it slightly protective since I have had a roll in each one. I hope to continue to have a hand in future events as well. I cannot think of a more worthy cause or organization to donate my time too. I am proud to support CanPKU and all it does for our PKU Community.

We are truly blessed to have such a wonderful group of people looking after our best interests and our future. They passion that pours from each member of CanPKU is inspiring. They love what they do and they care about the PKU community. It really shows in the long hours and all the work they do behind the scenes.  There is so much that goes on that is not noticed or acknowledged. I wanted to take the time to write about CanPKU as a thank you and in recognition of the hard work they do for us. Lobbying to the government for universal treatment, and working with each province, hosting events, educating the community , the medical professionals and the government. traveling to other events, and sponsoring events, fundraising, petitions and more.

For the past few years my roll has continued to evolve in CanPKU and I have had the pleasure of being on the advocacy team, working for coverage of low protein foods and KUVAN. I went to the legislator in Victoria With CanPKU, sat in parliament and spoke to MLA;s about my life with PKU and how it effects me. I have been in the news, on the radio, in the newspaper, and I have met and spoken with MLA’s , government officials and even the health minister. I have lobbied and educated everyone that I can. I am even collecting petition signatures to deliver to our health minister.

CanPKU had educated me to be the advocate that I am, keeping me up to date , informed and providing access to trained professionals to support my advocacy.  They have also kept me very informed on reasearch, latest news, events, products and going ons in the PKU Community. I sometimes have more information than my clinic and end up passing it along to them.

Since working with CanPKU I feel like many doors have opened for me, I feel like I have grown as a person , taking on a more active roll has motivated me to also look after myself. It keeps me on track with my levels and diet. Not to mention, the privileges and the honors bestowed on me of opportunity to meet the incredible people that I have had the pleasure of meeting   along the way. From various contributes, low protein companies, doctors, dietitians and PKU hero’s like Dr. Louis Woolf. One of my most favorite memories I have made in this journey is after an event the volunteers and CanPKU going out for dinner. Cole and I went with John , we picked up Dr. Woolf and I got to sit beside him at dinner and talk with him!!!!

I just love any chance I get to sit   down and listen to John or Nicole talk about PKU. They are such a wealth of information , sometimes I feel like I need to take notes. I enjoy the monthly phone conferences, the exchange of information and the chance to hear what each advocate has been up to. Or the latest progress.

If there is anything more of me that I can give I am happy to do so. It is my wish to be involved with CanPKU for years to come. I hope to never miss an event or an opportunity.  I look forward to the educational seminars and socials every year. I hope attend them for as long as I can and as often as I can. I hope one day to travel to other provinces and attend events there. to meet the people that I talk to online across Canada. Of course, only if cole comes with me though.

I am excited to see where CanPKU goes next and have my hopes and my dreams resting on that our advocacy campaign is a success and we get the coverage here in BC that we need. Even if and when we do, our work will never be done! PKU is dynamic and ever changing.

I encourage all PKU Canadians to join CanPKU, become a member and experience the informative events, get connected with PKU families in your area, receive the newsletter, join the advocacy team and take advantage of member  benefits like travel scholarships to events,  discount rates on events, Low protein Chocolate Easter bunnies at Easter and low protein chocolate advent calenders at Christmas.  For all that CanPKU does, the membership rates are low and very much worth it. They are also annual. You can find the membership information online at http://www.canpku.org

CanPKU is not a charity, they are a non profit incorporated assocation, dedicating to supporting people with PKU and other allied disorders. They  rely on fundraising and donations to keep doing the work that they do for us. So Please also  consider donating to CanPKU via the website, the Pennies for PKU  penny drive, The October Cut-a-thon or by purchasing merchandise. You can also join them on facebook and follow them on twitter! 

 

In the nursing Community we have our union, and our nursing association such as the LPNABC then we hold a license through our governing body the college of LPNS.  Well in the PKU Community, Our clinics are comparable to the governing body, and CanPKU is the patients, family and friends association! I am a proud supporter of CanPKU and hope you will be too!

 

 

 

Managing the diet, That's my PKU life

Being a Nurse with PKU.

I am often asked about my career as a Licensed Practical Nurse. I am asked frequently if having PKU and my experiences in health care pointed me towards being a nurse.  Or of I had always dreamed about being a nurse. Honestly becoming a nurse, was not my first choice. I had many ideas prior to deciding . While I was in school I had not thought much about post secondary education. I was a horrible student with a C- average. I failed many subjects and skipped school many many times. I just wanted to be done. My only focus was getting out. My only dreams where of being a mother and a wife. Even though my hole life , until I was 18, I was told I would never be able to have a baby. However that’s a story for another time. I held out hope.

As I started grade 10 in high school, I really started to think more about post secondary, in my heart I always always knew that I would do something. I just didn’t think I was smart enough or good enough. I just knew I wanted to have a post secondary education. My mind swirled with options, One thing that I kept coming back to was, how much  I  enjoyed  was , working at the pre-school. I loved babies. I loved being around young babies and toddlers. I finished school by doing a CAP program and I used work hours as extra credit. I volunteered at 3 pre- school classes a week. Even working at the day care on our high school property where students and teachers who had young children could attend. I began to consider for a while, being an ECE ( early childhood educator) for a long time.

After high school when Cole and I where still new in our relationship, I held various jobs, a beauty specialist at super store, the head cashier at winners, a photographer and sales associate at sears portrait studio. That was one of my most favorite jobs. After that I worked at sears, I was a receptionist at Slegg Lumber, and 2 chiropractic offices. Even with my various jobs, I always thought about post secondary. I had to put it on hold for many years, with injuries, illness, financial set backs , life sort of got away and it was not the right time. I kept applying and looking around though. I had applied at Camosun College twice for ECE and had been accepted but then could not get financing. After I got over my disappointment I began looking at other options , funding and colleges. I than considered a career as a counselor. I spent alot of time in the counselor’s office in school. They really helped me out alot and I wanted to help people. That was the one thing I knew when considering a career of my own. I wanted to work with people, I wanted to make a difference and help people.

Nursing was not even on my radar, One day in 2008 I decided to make an appt with a career counselor at sprott shaw college. Cole and I went in and we talked about my life and my experiences, careers I had considered and why.  joe my career counselor who became my friend, mentioned practical nursing, and something in side my brain clicked. I instantly flashed through my life,  focusing on when I was in highschool, to the time I was fighting my battle with high levels, When I grew sicker and sicker. I needed to be admitted to BC Children’s hospital , twice on long term admissions. I spent a lot of time around nurses and doctors. I was a bit resentful at times to all the authority around me, the people poking and prodding me and testing me. But at the end of the night, my nurses where my angels. They made me feel so comfortable. They helped me more than anything. I remember 3 nurses who impacted my life so much. I was a rebellious teenager and I was away from my friends, my family, my baby siblings and my home. For weeks on end and my family could not visit. I became very attached to a few of my nurses. One nurse in particular, she would end her shift and than come and sit with me, french braid my hair and talk with me about my day. I oped up to her and shared my feelings. I remember her smile and her kindness. I dont think I could have gotten by with out her. The next thing I knew, I was reaching over and signing the papers on the application and admission packages.

The process after that was a whirl wind. It all happened to fast. Next thing I know, I was getting my funding, a student loan and money from Cole. I did all my pre-requisitions, admission tests, doctors visits, immunizations and planing for school. I was registered for classes to begin in February 2009. I signed up in October 2008. In January I was started biology 12 as a pre reg for the course. At the same time, our home had flooded and we where in the middle of a move and has alot of our furniture. I had to finish biology, move and go through an insurance claim all by February to start classes. It was a very busy time.

Once i started school, it became all about my grades. I was determine to be a better student. To focus and to succeed. I did not work while in school, Cole supported us and bought all my low protein food so I could stay healthy and keep my levels low so I could focus, learn and retain what I learnt. My life became all about my grades and meeting my own expectations. If it effected Cole or I or my grades I cut it out. I really learnt who my friends where and lost a few along the way. I wanted to be a good student. I tried hard, studied harder, and tried every single skill on my practicums. There where of course a few moments where I was like ” what did I get myself into” But they where over come with moments where I was fascinated with learning. Everything interested me. I really grew as a person.I came into the course naive, never seeing any one naked expect cole of course ( laughing out loud at that) Blood and bodily fluids freaked me out and I did not have a care aid back ground like most of my classmates. I learnt how to separate though and I obtained what they called “nurses brain” like a switch that gets flicked and takes you away from those feelings and you just do it and over come it. I learnt that even though things use to make me cringe, helping people is what mattered. Looking after my residents or my patients was the my focus, it was all that matters, and it still is. I am helping them, and most times they are as emberessed as I am and grateful for the help. When I am at work, when I am with my residents, nothing phases me. I do everything I can to make them comfortable and happy. Yet nudity on tv and real life still makes me cringe a little with emberessement. Blood bothers me in large amounts but now i just switch on my nurses brain and be confident in my skills and let my hands take over.

Going through school and having the access to the low protein foods , keeping my levels low and feeling clear headed and accomplishment with my great grades, proved to me how important it was for me to maintain lower levels. My PKU and my health need to be the best they can be, so i can be the best me for my patients. One of our classes in school focuses on our rights and responsibilities as a nurse , one of those being related to looking after my body. I know I cannot practice or be a good nurse if my levels are effected. I cannot administer medications or preform a procedure if my brain is foggy. It is my right and my responsibility to my residents to keep my brain safe so I can give safe quality care.

Working shift work is hard on my body and makes it challenging to maintain low levels. Luckily I work in such a great place. I also work 8 hour shifts. On my day shifts I need to bring lunch with me , normally my hardest meal of the day. I tend to bring salads, soups or pizza pops. Afternoon shifts I need to bring dinner. My low protein pasta does not keep well so when I am working I tend to bring mashed potatoes, cream corn and applesauce. On night shifts, I have a snack at 1 am, either something low protein, and than my breakfast at 5 am. Usually low protein bread or a bagel and my formula. luckily in my LCU we have a toaster, kettle and microwave.

Working sporadically and casually for 2 years since graduating , saw a roller coaster of levels due to finances and ability to afford low protein food. The less I worked, the less I could access low protein food. So then it was harder for me to work. Certainly yet another pku roller coaster.

Now since moving to kamloops I have been working regularly , and I filled a night line for 5 months temporarily. Worked casually again in September and last night started back on the night line. I never thought id ever enjoy a night shift , or feel comfortable. However I like the stability. I like having a set schedule and not being on call all the time. It has made it a lot easier to be prepared and pre plan. It is a bit harder to dedicate a day to cooking and baking as I am so tired on my days off , but i think i am adjusting much quicker this time around.

Looking back over the 3 years I have been an LPN , there has been ups and downs, with my body physically and my limitations with my back injury, as well as financially being able to maintain my low protein food usage. I wouldn’t change it for the world though. I know now this is what I was meant to do. I love my residents and have formed many bonds. I love working in just one place, and I love my co workers. I am very happy hear and can see myself doing this for many years to come. I do always have a back up though. If a time came where my back failed me or I was unable to be a nurse, my next best of course is a dietitian! I mean really could it have been anything else?