I am not sure what it is about that number “30” weeks but it really is starting to feel pretty real , pretty fast. Not that it hasn’t but its like the final stretch kinda feeling? Give or take 10 weeks to go. So close to single digital weeks, so close to ending work, so close to summer vacation and then Bam! baby!

Things like labor and birth are becoming a forefront for thought again. Even though I have been through it before , i am actually more scared this time! Now I know what to expect lol. I am remembering the pain.   I know best that you cannot control labor or birth, to be flexible and be open. All the matters is a healthy baby and  healthy me.  However I like to have a plan. Even tentatively.  I like information. I like to know options and scenarios and what ifs so I can know what id decide before that happens.  Last time I went in thinking I dont want to drugs but If i end up needing them thats ok to. I made it pretty far to. I was 28 hours in to my labor when I finally agreed to take the epidural and omg I am so glad looking back that I did.

This time , I am hoping for a water home birth. I have my same supportive wonderful midwife who has faith in me, even when my faith is beginning to waver. I fear my ability to get through the pain.  I am worried it will be to much to bare . I am worried if I will have the strength. I was so tired last time. I stalled at 8cm for 12 hours!

I have so many anxiety this week. How will Madelyn react to meeting her baby, and then realizing baby is staying forever. How will our little life change? How will we cope with the changes? Will we get through it? What about sleep? How am I going to be able to manage to be awake all night with a newborn then awake all day with an active busy toddler while still giving her the time and attention she deserves and not loosing my patience? How will it change my relationship with Madelyn? How can i love another like I love her? How does my heart have the room?

Will I be able to breastfeed this time? That was harder then pregnancy for me !

With the pain i have been already having in my hips and abdominal’s will it hamper my ability to labor this time?

All things considered, much like with Madelyn I have had a fairly regular pregnancy. No real issues.  My levels have been fantastic again. For the past several weeks we have been chasing them. Every week they have been coming back under 2.  My latest was 1.4 mg /dl and I was increased to 1075 mg phe . I have been eating a lot of minute rice and avocados for dinner. I have my low protein breakfasts, and lunches but dinner is all about the regular food!  my blood pressure is great , my heart rate is still erratic and i have trouble breathing sometimes. I havent vomited. I have had some heart burn.  I havent really gained any weight. I am starting to now,. but im still  below my pre pregnancy weight. I currently weigh 192 . Keeping in mind I started at 195 and went down to 184.  I dont feel that big, just awkward.  I have tried to keep up with swimming and yoga but i have noticed im more tired.

I am still doing my blood dots twice a week. I have one more ultrasound coming up in the next couple of weeks. A teleconference scheduled in july with my PKU clinic.  One last blood profile to check my nutrients and re check my iron, one last OBGYN appt and now 2 times a month mid wife appts that will change in july to weekly.  I feel like things are winding down and ramping up all at the same time. My schedule is slowing down, my pregnancy is coming to an end but we are amping up and preparing for baby.

Once im done work and my daycare closes we can begin the renovation and making of our nursery. Baby girls theme is “winnie the pooh”

Im still wrapping my head around this is my last baby, my last pregnancy. In some ways its gone by so fast, in others it still feels so unreal and surprising to be even having another already.  Im trying to remember and blog as much as I can so one day I can look back. Life with  a toddler is a blue and im always in awe how much she has grown and how far she has come and how can she already be 3? I am sure it will feel even faster when there are 2 running around. I honestly dont now how mamas of 2 or more do it!

I find myself wondering what they will be like as sisters, what this new baby will be like as an individual, who will she look like? how will we feel when we meet her?  Will she have hair like her sister? will she cry alot or not much like madelyn? What will we name her!!! that is my biggest question. We are still no closer to a name then we where before we knew she was a girl.

I cant wait to get my next blood phe results back from the blood dot I did on Thursday. i should have it back late tomorrow or early Tuesday. I am hoping for another increase. I am so close to being able to eat out, have avocado sushi or chow mein again! By the time madelyn was born I was up to 2000 mg phe so fingers crossed I get there again!

Im finding it easier to eat this time around as the nicer weather means more salads and fresh fruit. In the winter I tend to comfort eat warm foods.

Right now I could really go for a big bowl of cereal but im not quiet there yet if I want to have rice for dinner to.

Here is what babycenter.ca has to say about week 30 !

 

**** Your baby’s lungs and digestive tract are almost fully developed. While your baby may soon slow up growing in length, (she measures about 15.7 inches/ 40 centimetres from crown to toe by now), she will continue to gain weight until she’s born.

This week your baby continues to open and shut her eyes. She can probably see what’s going on in utero, distinguish light from dark and even track a light source. If you shine a light on your stomach, your baby may move her head to follow the light or even reach out to touch the moving glow. Some researchers think baring your stomach to light stimulates visual development. But don’t expect 20/20 vision when your baby is born — newborns can see a distance of only about 8 to 12 inches/ 20 to 30 centimetres. (Children with normal vision don’t reach 20/20 vision until about age 7 to 9.) To complete the picture, your baby now has eyebrows and eyelashes.

*** source babyceneter.ca

 

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